Monday, April 17, 2017


Prayer has been a huge issue God has been working on my heart the past few years, especially the past 8 or 9 months. I've been so convinced that the prayer of a righteous man [or woman!] avails much (Proverbs 15:29; James 5:16; 1 Peter 3:12), and yet there is none righteous, no not one (Psalm 143:2; Romans 3:9-10). I'm so thankful that Jesus imparts His righteousness to me (Romans 1:17; Romans 2:13; Romans 3:22; Romans 4:5; Romans 5:19; Romans 10:4; 2 Corinthians 5:21; Ephesians 4:24; Philippians 1:11; Philippians 3:9; 2 Timothy 4:8; Titus 3:5; )!

I'm living through a long, dry season of huge "unanswered" prayers. Not only are the things I'm praying about not getting resolved, some situations are getting worse... and Worse... and WORSE! For months on end, even years! Keeping faith gets hard!

How amazing that at Mount Hermon, I had chances to pray with several different people and repeatedly see significant and immediate answers. Also, I had an almost fully pain-free week and had notable lack of many profound stroke deficits during my week there! What refreshing reminders that God is still powerful and active in my life.

I appreciate this article on prayer that begins with the powerful description of a common prayer struggle, "We want to talk to God but can’t. The friction of our desire to pray, combined with our badly damaged prayer antennae, leads to constant frustration. It’s as if we’ve had a stroke." 

It's as if we've had a stroke! For obvious reasons, these words  have profound impact for me!

Saturday, April 15, 2017

Silent Saturday

Sandwiched between the anguish of Good Friday and the glory of Easter Sunday is Saturday, the day Heaven was silent.

Life often feels like the day Jesus lay low in the grave. The drama of acute is over, yet celebration has not yet come. Thankfully, though it often feels that way, Heaven is never truly silent.

I'm glad yesterday is over! I look forward to tomorrow. For today, I pray us each peace!

Monday, April 3, 2017

Travel With Me

I'm leaving on Wednesday to start making my way to Mount Hermon Christian Writer's Conference. I will be tweeting daily updates from @RenoMom (my personal page, with motherhood and stroke focuses, along with northern Nevada interests, if I can get my phone to work with that account) and/or @InfertilityMom (my big infertility, miscarriage, adoption page, where my phone likes to post by default), using hashtag #MHWriters2017 either way. Please journey with me! :)

Want to leave me encouragement or post your prayers for the journey? Please use #HarvestingHope as your tag so I am sure to find you. :)

Hubby and oldest miracle baby preparing to leave for his prom this past Saturday.

I would especially appreciate your prayers for Rick and our kids as they hold down the fort while I'm away. I'm cutting three days off my original trip plans, but still will be gone for nearly a week.

Monday, March 20, 2017

Winner selected Sarah H. is the winner of our Laura Story CD giveaway. Enjoy Open Hands, Sarah. Please check you facebook PM within 48 hours. :)

Saturday, March 18, 2017

When Others Remember My Babies

Tee, thank you for remembering our babies in Heaven and honoring them today!

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Planning My Funeral

This is not a morbid post. Promise! In fact, stay tuned for a fun giveaway.

No, I have no particular timeframe in mind, no imminent expectation of needing to implement my funeral plans. This is simply a topic I've pondered ever since nearly dying almost 5 1/2 years ago and long-outliving the wildest possible expectations of maybe 3 or 4 years, as the long, most ludicrous possible outcome.

I would argue that funeral planning is a topic all of us might do well to consider. Life is 100% fatal, after all. There's a good chance you will have a funeral someday. Wouldn't it be great, as is true of making a will, your own plans and ideas could be honored, your loved ones relieved of the weight of decision-making?

I'm sure I'll add more ideas as I clarify them, but the one list I've been mentally creating for years is one I want to get started today:

For my children, I want the song Give You Faith by Laura Story, from her new album Open Hands, played.

For my husband, Your Hands by J. J. Heller, is my message to leave him. Likely also a Steven Curtis Chapman song, but I haven't decided which one yet. (Suggestions?)

For my grieving friends and family, I want Blessed Be the Name played or sung.

As a congregation, I want several hymns sung. I've jotted down several, so I'll add them as I remember or find my notes, but I'll Fly Away is one for sure.

Also, a hymn that saw me through our miscarriage and infertility years, It is Well With My Soul.

This is just a start, but help me with my list please. What do you want played/sung at your funeral and why? What should I consider adding to my list?

I want to focus for a moment on just one of these artists, Laura Story. Perhaps you know the name from her popular song (another of my favorites) Blessings or Mighty To Save. Something I didn't know about this GRAMMY winner is that she has recently written a new book and bible study curriculum I want to get my hands on, When God Doesn't Fix It: Lessons You Never Wanted To Learn, Truths You Can't Live Without.

If you would like to enter for a chance to win a copy of Laura's brand new CD, Open Hands, please leave a comment answering my above question about what song you would want played at your funeral and why. Be sure to comment with a valid form of contact! I'll draw a winner Monday morning, so please enter soon and share widely. (For each share of this link via your blog, social media, even emailing to friends, leave me another comment in order to gain another entry!)

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Thursday, November 24, 2016

After Infertility Thankfulness

So thankful to be a mom, beyond words! Even after so many years, I vividly remember those childless years where my heart struggled to find thankfulness. Praying for those still waiting, grieving today!