Friday, January 1, 2010

New Year Tears

It's one of those days when I just don't know what's wrong with me. I cried myself to sleep last night, snapped at my family first thing this morning, then went back to bed and cried some more. I had pictured a beautiful, quiet family day as we welcomed in the new year and instead I'm making my family walk on egg shells. I know I'm over-tired. I know stress over medical news (and lack of other long-awaited news) is really getting to me.

I also know that the attacker (I refuse to capitalize references to the old snake) would love nothing more than to steal away the joy I've just been posting about. And so today I'm starting this year in tears, but also seeking after the Lord and asking Him to work His peace in my heart! I would love to have you visit my prior post and share with me your God-sized dreams for this new year.

"You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, he trusts in you." (Isaiah 26:3, NIV)


Lori said...

Bless your heart... I join you in your tears, and pray for them to dry for both of us. Someone posted on my blog that the devil was auctioning off all his tools but refused to part with one...when asked why he wouldn't part with the one, he said, "Because as long as I have deception, I don't need anything else." Praying for your joy to return and for your heart to feel it.

Anonymous said...

Oh, sweet friend, thanks for sharing your heart..the ups and the downs. I'm praying for you right now.

Our New Year's Day was very similar. I went to bed praying that the next day I would be a better mommy.

Anna said...

Jennifer, I can't tell you how much your book meant to me. I blogged about it in hopes that people in my life will read it as well. I just can't tell you how much I needed to read it. "Thank you" is not enough!